| My Christmas in a Nutshell |
[26 Dec 2006|12:26am] |
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Now that it's over, how did my Christmas day go?
Well, I got the presents I wanted.
1 - Dance Dance Revolution
2 - LoZ Twilight Princess
3 - Wireless Router
And a few extra things such as clothing and other accesories from family, etc.
I love my DDR.
Family and relatives came over. Basically spent the whole time in the basement playing DDR, except for times to go get food, bathroom breaks, etc, or when Glenn and I came upstairs to watch Battle Royale.
I was pretty tired out the majority of the night. Didn't do much other than watch people do things, instead of doing things myself.
Overall, it was a pretty good christmas. Although I guess I had expected it to be much better since I feel so bummed out for some reason.
Even though I was happy to see my family/relatives and I all, I think I really need a lot of me time and more personal space.. just to do whatever I wanna do, I guess.
Being around everyone else kind of tired me out. For some reason I'm always less tired when I'm on the computer by myself. F1
Weird. But anyway. Off to do who knows what.
Actually.. I do know. To obsess..
Over DBSK.. and Changmin, <3 :D
Byebye and Merry Late X-Mas!!
Annalisa Visconti
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| It Is Waiting.. |
[21 Dec 2006|09:04pm] |
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Evanescence - Missing |
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Did you know I want you
Did you know I want you to notice me
I wanted them all to notice me
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I know they are all out there
Disregarding the shadow in the corner
That constantly creeps behind them
Waiting
Just waiting
For someone to come
For someone to care
Someone to help it
Out of the shadows
The unspoken voice
Weak and dwindling
Yet always waiting
Waiting for that one chance
Waiting for that one chance
Waiting for that one other chance
To not take
And let it pass by
Just as before
Just like always
Waiting for another chance
To not make
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| In my memories |
[06 Dec 2006|08:59pm] |
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Venga Boys - Going To Ibiza |
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Sugar died. My mom found her in the basement, lying on her side in a weird position, with her eyes open and she was all stiff.
I don't know how or why. My mom says she probably had a heart attack.
RIP Sugar. <3
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..you will stay forever
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| I already know.. |
[28 Nov 2006|06:27pm] |
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Weird Al - I Think I'm A Clone Now |
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Today.. it was alright. But I found out that both Tricia and Stefanie like Mark. LOL. But Stef said she might like someone else so.. yeah I don't know. And I don't know what they are going to do about the situation but oh well.
But I found out bad news too. Yet it's not really necessary to mention here.
( Yeah, I think I've got it down by now )
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...yet I wish I didn't
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[15 Nov 2006|11:34pm] |
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This week so far has been.. well I'm not really sure right now.
I got addicted to Ouran High School Host Club on the weekend because of Pina.
It's so fucking awesome.
But it's prone to make me feel slightly depressed because of the damned situation between the Hitachiin twins and Haruhi.
Damn it.
It makes me mad at Hikaru.
All the more sympathetic towards Kaoru.
Increasingly more so saddened and depressed. Fcked, yes?
Anyway.
Today was good. I guess. We had an assembly during fourth period about drug usage and drinking and driving.
It probably wouldn't have been so bad if I didn't have to have sat for like 5 years, all the while my ass is going numb. :\
Glenn and I were having this long discussion on the use of the phrase 'same difference.' Sad but funny.
Why the fck am I posting right now? :\ lol
Kaoruuuuuuu <3
mmk goodnight
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| So I'll Say It.. |
[14 Nov 2006|09:15pm] |
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I can't go against it
Can't keep breaking every rule
Believing in something else
In something that didn't happen
Making myself believe a lie
Just another fucking fantasy
That is all it will ever be
It's not real
It didn't happen
It wont happen
Ever
That's why I have to stop
The things from my mind
Which force me to believe
In what is fake
And only what I want and wish for to happen
And to have happened
In the end
It just leaves me heartbroken
And angsty
Just do what he does
What everyone else does
Go with the flow
Don't think of anything else
Whatever is there is there
And it is what is real
And I will like it
Whether forced or not
Because believing in something fake
Is just setting myself up for hurt
And pain
And heartbreak
Something that I do not want
But believing in what is real
Is not always..
What I want either
Believing a lie
Will just make me live a lie
So goodbye fantasy.
And hello reality.
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...even though it hurts to say, goodbye
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[06 Nov 2006|11:15pm] |
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Random songs from Rock School stuck in my head |
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Omgawshhhh.
I just watched the last epi of Rock Schoollll
It was awesome.
Lololol.
OK I'M DONE.
Random posts = awesomeness :D
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| Broken.. |
[06 Nov 2006|07:04pm] |
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Legend of Zelda [Metal Remix] |
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I was not expecting this to happen at all today.
I wasn't expecting to have my great mood and for once great going life suddenly become totally the opposite.
I was not expecting to be hurt by friends.
I wasn't expecting to find out that no matter how hard I try, I'll never be as good as you.
And I was definitely not expecting any tears.
Yet they came anyway.
And there is just nothing I can do about it.
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Yesterday.. and earlier today.. I was so determined.
But the second I looked at your work, that vanished and went away.
Determination is something that is hard fo me to hold onto.
You make me jealous.. no matter how I admire you so..
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So here I am once again. Drowning in fucking misery.
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...right in two
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[03 Nov 2006|11:58pm] |
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DDR - Healing Vision [Angelic Mix] |
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Omfg. Will you just go away already?!?!
I hate this.
Because I try so so hard to forget.
And it doesn't fucking work.
And then she fcking hops on board as well.
Fuck this.
Who the hell are you?! What the hell!
Not that she even fucking knows you.
She's such a fucking attention seeker.
It makes me so mad.
And it makes me so much more mad
because I'm so fucking jealous.
It's so fucked up.
What the hell is wrong with me.
Why the hell won't you just disappear?!
You drive me fucking insane.
I want to fcking throw something at your face!
sjdfghfjhkfdhgfkh
just die will you?!?!?!?!
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